I Found GRACE

I found Grace in the eyes of the Lord and my life will never be the same. Thank You God for showing me just a glimpse of Your glory. I am truly so undeserving especially knowing that I did nothing to earn this but it is solely by Your grace.

I will always trust in your kindness Lord. It is ultimately because of Your grace, great love, goodness and kindness that I am a heir to Your kingdom. 🙏🏾 Thank You dear Lord for the assurance of this promise. You are a promise keeper. Dear Lord please help me have faith like Abraham, Noah, Daniel and all the heroes of old.

Dear Lord I now realize the events of this past month were to reveal to me that I am indeed Your daughter. Dear God I’ve always loved you so much but I was so blind to spiritual things omgoodness. I was so in the dark. Dead in my sin. Dear Lord you know my heart. What You’re asking from me is the least I can do. This world means nothing to me, being in this dark evil world feels like hell. The devil tried to make me doubt what I knew with conviction about You. Dear Lord I was arrogant thinking I knew all these mental illnesses even thinking I was manic but You said You make the wisdom of the world seem foolish. 1 Corinthians 3:13 “For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God’s sight. As it is written: “He catches the wise in their craftiness." Oh how foolishly confident I was! You are the ultimate healer and I have this healing gift only because You have been so merciful to me. I share in Your authority to tell the mountains to move into the sea and they will! Then who can make me afraid or fearful?! I will happily share in Christ my messiah’s suffering here on earth. I was being obedient even when my heart wasn’t fully in it the past month but now I will truly rejoice in my suffering here in this evil world because of this gift of eternal life You have freely given me. I’m so sorry I was all caught up in vanity dear Lord. I will be a missionary for You on this earth. I will make Your glory known. I have no fear and absolutely no doubt now, I am so sorry I required this much proof in miracles, signs and wonders to finally get to this point of belief. For so long I’ve been yearning to hear Your voice and You exceeded my expectations! Thank You Lord. I will serve You, love You, reconcile with everyone. Please dear Lord give me the strength to do all this through Your Holy Spirit. You told me not to conform to the world but be renewed daily by the power of Your precious Holy Word. Please give me the wisdom I need to help bring people to You.

I have been SAVED from hell!!! I am no longer a slave to fear, the perfect and good law given to Moses no longer has power over me! I am victorious! I am the bringer of victory over the evil one because I have the same power of the Holy Spirit inside of me that resurrected Jesus Christ. Dear Lord please reveal to me with clarity Your purpose for my life. Only Your love in me could deliver me from my sinful nature of unforgiveness, of the weakness even my own family was convinced was in me. Dear Lord through Your power in me I declare that my lack of focus, any anxieties, and depression, and vision problems or tooth ache is gone! Dear Jesus Christ my messiah who I longed to know oh my! Please intercede for me. Dear Lord I am willing to let go of my family if You so desire, I will face anything they say and will respond with love and kindness. Holy Spirit please radically transform me so that I can bear such evident fruit to get people to seek God so that they too can be Saved if it is in Your will. Through You all things are possible.

I share in God’s spirit so I have to honor that and I will! Thank You dear God for choosing me. I didn’t know all my suffering here on earth; being scared for my turn to come In class because I was stuttering and no one understood, with Dano and the abuse I endured, and all those times my heart broke into pieces. Dear Lord You had mercy on me. I could never thank You enough. I will stay in the Word. I have no fear over the ruler of this world. I will die to my flesh daily, I will continue to trust You fully and know that I am going to suffer in this world because it is not my home and sin still wants my flesh to fulfill its desires. I know now that I am no longer a slave to sin and You have said that You will make me perfectly righteous so I can be worthy of beholding You in all Your full glory and live in Heaven with You for eternity. Lord no none and nothing on earth is worth me losing out on this free gift by Your grace and love for me and for Christ’s intense suffering. I will have crazy faith with confidence now to follow Your purpose for me, carrying my cross daily to tell everyone of Your goodness! I have seen only a fraction of Your glory and I’ve been awestruck, not needing water, food, or sleep but just being joyful that You found me worthy. to call Your child. The daughter of the Most High God! The King of Kings!

Dear Lord I will believe and trust You that You have me in the palms of Your hand. You have given me this joy and peace that surpasses all understanding and I’m so grateful. Just like Peter I will be bold and step out of the boat and walk on water and never sink because I know You will keep me afloat because I will never take my eyes off of You! I have finally gotten to crazy faith. You gave me all these revelations so clearly, I am no longer fearful. I will analyze my heart and my motives and let go of anything that is causing my faith in You not to be perfect. You already know my heart. I will stay in the Word because I know it is alive. You pulled me to thee book of Romans, the daily miracles I’ve experienced are mind blowing. You have told me that my loved ones will be ok, that I am forgiven and made new. I am born of Your Holy Spirit, I am Your daughter marching on as Your vessel to bring souls to You. It is my duty, I will gladly do so. The great commission as Jesus commands it. I will refuse to conform to any world’s standards. You said You didn’t come to bring peace, You came with a sword to turn mother against daughter, sister against sister. Thank You Lord for assuring me that my loved ones will be ok. I will not doubt Your word. I now know that I have overcome my sinful nature so I can live without practicing sin since I have been born of the Holy Spirit. Dear Lord I will fall short but I will come running back to You on bended knee and I know You will wash me clean and restore me as You have promised.

I am extraordinary in God’s eyes whew, His workmanship, His masterpiece! Romans 12:16

Romans 12 tells me how to live righteous and to be a living sacrifice for God, allowing Him to truly transform me into His image and perfect me for His glory after His purpose.

Dear Lord I am talking to You. Dear Lord please search my heart, soul and mind for anywhere is still prone to sin. I now understand why I need to die to my flesh daily because the flesh is sinful and anything that satisfies it is only fueling sin’s desires and the wages for this is death. I now understand. I have to go all in. I have overcome! I don’t love anything of this world. I don’t have to marvel at Your creation anymore because I now realize I was starting to idolize it and my travel blog was fueled by vanity and pride. Dear Lord traveling is not my therapy, what I have found in You the world could never give me. I found satisfaction for my soul. I feel light and free like a butterfly. You brought me from boarding school in Cameroon and kept me alive after that car accident for a reason. Dear Lord I have the Spirit of truth and peace in me so please help me continue to listen to it and know that if anything doesn’t produce any of the 9 fruits of the Holy Spirit inside of me it is not of You and I will cast it out in Jesus’s name! You’ve already shown me I had that authority when I rebuked the spirit that has my husband captive. What more of now that I have this assurance!

I pray for discernment, I pray for wisdom yet again, I pray for strength to carry this cross joyously daily Lord! Please help me be a beacon of Your light so that others may see and want to seek You. Help me to love all my brothers and sisters in Christ’s body like I am called to do. Thank You for forgiving me. Thank You for telling me so clearly to rest yesterday. Thank You for being pleased with me. For so long I lived in fear, so many decisions made in fear yet I was the one that kept saying fear and faith cannot coexist. There is no room for any fear or anxiety or doubt now just crazy faith through Your grace to be transformed, made new. I am.a new creation in Christ Jesus, the old has passed away. The world doesn’t know my name, they don’t know me so anything they try to say to this Your new creation will not faze me. You are my Father, I love you so much and now I fear You because I truly know that I am saved solely and primarily because of Your love and grace and by Your grace in giving me this child-like faith. You revealed Moses story to me which perfectly describes this rebirth of mine. I too believe I can part the Red Sea by the power of Your Holy Spirit, I can go to pharaoh on Your authority with boldness! Please strengthen this weak flesh, help me to exercise regularly so that I can use this sinful flesh that was meant for my harm to be able and made in perfect health as You originally intended so that I can preach Your Good news tirelessly. 🙏🏾

Please help me to pray without ceasing as I have come to truly know the power of Your Holy Spirit and the power of prayer. I see You in everything. It is not a coincidence that You kept on leading me to Romans, not a coincidence that the book “the power of the Holy Spirit” I bought is right in front of me. The days of doubt are behind me, not by my power or might through this weak flesh but by the divine power of the Holy Spirit giving me strength and defying the wisdom of earth’s wise. The power to perform miracles and do even greater things than Jesus did, because we can reach so many now. I will follow in Your footsteps Lord and use what was separating me from You, social media to spread Your good news. I need a faith blog. I can’t limit it to mental health because only in You is found the peace, purpose. hope and joy burdened souls are so desperately seeking. You called me to love my brothers and sisters and I have the responsibility to allow myself to be transformed fully by You so it can lead to them keep seeking You. Please use me as a testimony to Your glory dear Lord. In You, all things are possible, I just need the matching crazy faith to trust and to surrender completely to the Holy Spirit to complete this good work You started in me which You promised to complete.

Thank You for Your amazing grace that makes all this possible Lord. I love You and Your grace is truly sufficient.

Glory to God forever and always!!! Praise Jesus!!!